dilema ati

ai nme sy nur ezreen binti abdul rahim..sy sgt keliru smp xtau nk pk cmne da..np org laki ni sng dtg n sng pg..mcm angin ble pns berangin ble ujan pn berangin..skang ni pe kne mngena ngn angin..hish bingung2..npla die cri ak blk die kate nk bkwn abis slme ni pn da mcm kwn je nk kwn cmne ag..ssh sgt ke nk bce n jge ati seorg pmpn da la laki skang ni jnis yg sial ske menjatuhkn maruah pmpn seolah2 pmpn ni bkn manusia kt dunia ni..cbela klo bnde ni blaku pd adk kk or mak die or sape2 je dlm fmly die agk2 die rse bhgie gler mcm nk mati x..aku tau aku bkn org yg bek but pd ak ble laki da sng2 nk wt camtu kt mmbe ak smp die mengalirkn air mate ak mmg ptt protect mmbe ak 2..ak bkn brani mn pn tp bnde2 yg cmni la yg mbranikn ak utk bhdpn ngn lelaki yg sial.. skang ni ak da melalut2 rsenye bab ak nk citer sal dri ak dr starting td tp da tpesong plak..btw np die mst nk kwn ak blk nk jmp ak blk xckup ke rse saket yg die da wt kt ak slom ni..mmg ak yg jht but xsejht die..ak da ikhlaskn ati ak spye die bhgie ngn org len tp np die dtg blk..YA ALLAH Kau beriknla petunjukmu ya Allah..klo die mmg jodoh ak smp akhir hayat ak trime die..ak xnk wt solat istikharah 2 slgi ak blom bsedia nk kawen..or mmg ptt ak wt solat 2 skang ni hmmm berila petunjuMu ya ALLAH...